I forgot to mention previously that I have again been diagnosed. One of the things that I’ve always had trouble doing is asking for help. I will keep working at it, struggling, often failing until I figure it out or just plain quit. One of the things I learned in coaching is that this is typical for those with ADHD. It’s part of the people-pleasing thing. If we ask for help, then we’ve failed, and no one wants to be called a failure.

But when you start to stand up for yourself and get the help that you need, your attitude can change. That’s what one of the ADDmins suggested that I do. “Find a different doctor, someone that will listen to you.” And so I did. I did some research with my insurance company and found out what they would cover. Then I looked for people in my insurance network that gave more than an addendum about ADHD. I scheduled an appointment, talked with a therapist, and wouldn’t you know it? I have ADHD. He then set me up with a behavioral therapist and with a psychiatrist. I still have that appointment to get formally tested in November (not getting rid of that until I’m able to get some medications that work) and I won’t be meeting with the psychiatrist until the end of July, but there’s a light at the end of the tunnel.

Until then, I’ll keep meeting with the therapist to help me work through some of my struggles. I’ve already made some headway on that, but more on that later.